[渴望之書] How Could I Have Doubted

昨天去書局翻看了一本詩集叫渴望之書(Book of Longing)

作者是李歐納 柯恩(Leonard Cohen)

隨手翻了一頁看到的那首詩就驚到我了



HOW COULD I HAVE DOUBTED



I stopped looking for you

I stopped waitign for you

I stopped dying for you

and I started dying for myself

I aged rapidly

I became fat in the face

and soft in the gut

and I forgot that I'd ever loved you 

I was old 

I had no focus, no mission

I wandered around eating and buying

bigger and bigger clothes

and I fotgot why I hated

every long moment that was mine to fill

Why did you come back to me tonight

I can't even get off this chair

Tears run down my cheeks

I am in love again

I can live like this

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我怎生疑 (詹偉雄 / 譯)



我不再找尋你

我不再等候你

我不再為你而死

但我卻開始為我自己死去

我急速地老了

我的臉變臃腫

且肚腹開始鬆軟

而我甚至忘了我曾愛過你

我老了

我失去焦點,沒有使命

我在飲與食間浪游著,購買

愈來愈寬大的衣裳

我也忘了我如何痛恨

去填滿那屬於我的每一漫長時光

你為何今晚回來找我

我甚至無法從這把椅子起身

淚水流下我的雙頰

我又重新戀愛了

我可以如斯地活著

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心得:這是在描寫追尋內心深層渴望的一首詩嗎?